Friday, July 27, 2007
Familiar Fear
I hate packing.
I could have told you this was going to happen six months ago. I leave Saturday morning, less than 36 hours from now, and I have barely started sticking things into my suitcases. Without help from my sister, I'd have no idea which things I am taking and which things I am not. On top of that, I am totally overwhelmed at the gravity of the changes I am about to make. Even though I know I love Japan, love Mako and am fully capable of performing this job (despite my lack of experience), I find myself nearly paralyzed with anxiety.
But I know it's going to be awesome once I get my ass on that plane. What's to be scared of? New is good! And there's going to be lots of people (most of them friendly, I wager) who are looking forward to working with me. So I should be enthused, not spooked.
*sigh* Why am I not surprised that I'm getting hungry?
I could have told you this was going to happen six months ago. I leave Saturday morning, less than 36 hours from now, and I have barely started sticking things into my suitcases. Without help from my sister, I'd have no idea which things I am taking and which things I am not. On top of that, I am totally overwhelmed at the gravity of the changes I am about to make. Even though I know I love Japan, love Mako and am fully capable of performing this job (despite my lack of experience), I find myself nearly paralyzed with anxiety.
But I know it's going to be awesome once I get my ass on that plane. What's to be scared of? New is good! And there's going to be lots of people (most of them friendly, I wager) who are looking forward to working with me. So I should be enthused, not spooked.
*sigh* Why am I not surprised that I'm getting hungry?
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