Friday, July 29, 2005
Not Feelin' It
*sigh* The party was no fun at all. It was twice as noisy as last time and the Americans outnumbered the Japanese two to one. Plus, it seemed like all of the Americans there spoke very loudly and I felt like I couldn't get a word in edgewise. That, or they were super-flirty and made me nauseous. I found myself in that funk I get in when I feel intimidated or uncomfortable in social situations. At one point a cute (drunk) girl actually asked me to dance and I passed. Can you believe my nerve?
The highlights of the evening? Getting a $10 haircut on First Ave and spotting actors Michael Tucker and Jill Eikenberry. They're married, BTW, and I remember them from L.A. Law.
After the party ended I just had to eat something. I didn't want to get drunk (although I did have one glass of red wine) or eat the "wrong" things so I just went and ate a bunch of yakitori over at Oh! Taisho (the "sister" restaurant to Yakitori Taisho). Then I came home and started typing.
I'm just not doing so well right now. It feels like it's been a long week of ups and downs. It also seems like everywhere I look I see happy couples, arm in arm or tongue-in-tongue. And now I'm going to a wedding?!? Christ, I need a drink...
The highlights of the evening? Getting a $10 haircut on First Ave and spotting actors Michael Tucker and Jill Eikenberry. They're married, BTW, and I remember them from L.A. Law.
After the party ended I just had to eat something. I didn't want to get drunk (although I did have one glass of red wine) or eat the "wrong" things so I just went and ate a bunch of yakitori over at Oh! Taisho (the "sister" restaurant to Yakitori Taisho). Then I came home and started typing.
I'm just not doing so well right now. It feels like it's been a long week of ups and downs. It also seems like everywhere I look I see happy couples, arm in arm or tongue-in-tongue. And now I'm going to a wedding?!? Christ, I need a drink...
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Don't worry about other people being a couple. You're time will come when you are ready. Don't look to solve all your problems with food and drink. Its the easy way out and is only a short term solution. Look forward to Japan and all the fun you will have there.
# posted by 
: 29 July, 2005 22:02
: 29 July, 2005 22:02
Well I can believe turning down a dance. I'm not much for dancing. Are we going to dance at this wedding? We should talk about this.
Just goes to show that some social situations can be so lame and not worth it. Sounds like it had nothing to do with you. Some things just don't jive, the vibe can be wrong, and that's the way it is. Trust your guts and instinct. That funk=this sucks. Comforting yourself with food, very common (we all do it somewhat, right?). Not as bad now that you are paying closer attention to what you eat. Still something to consider trying to phase out, though. Seems like you consistently need to eat when you feel kinda shitty. Maybe it was a rough week...don't forget the big picture, though. You've done great stuff with your time, are making the effort to be social, are losing weight...I'm not politician but are you better off now than you were four years ago? I'd say yes! Slowly but surely...
Just goes to show that some social situations can be so lame and not worth it. Sounds like it had nothing to do with you. Some things just don't jive, the vibe can be wrong, and that's the way it is. Trust your guts and instinct. That funk=this sucks. Comforting yourself with food, very common (we all do it somewhat, right?). Not as bad now that you are paying closer attention to what you eat. Still something to consider trying to phase out, though. Seems like you consistently need to eat when you feel kinda shitty. Maybe it was a rough week...don't forget the big picture, though. You've done great stuff with your time, are making the effort to be social, are losing weight...I'm not politician but are you better off now than you were four years ago? I'd say yes! Slowly but surely...
Don't be so hard on yourself. Not every day needs to be exciting. In fact, most people don't do much at all and spend a lot of quality time alone. There is nothing wrong with being alone and learning how to be comfortable alone. I think that is where one develops their personality and interests. Besides, you are going to Japan! That is so exciting and fun! You are a very lucky person to have such a wonderful opportunity ahead of you.
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